Out of the 6 eggs collected, 5 fertilized and 4 grew properly so 2 were put back today and the other 2 are to be frozen. We find out tomorrow if they froze ok. So it looks like this stim cycle is playing out very similar to last time which I'm happy with so far :). Now we just have to wait and hope the blood test turns out a little better!
The other lesbian couple who had their egg collection on Monday were also in there today for their transfer at the same time. I was out of the room when they came in but Scout reckons Jazz got excited when she saw them and whispered loudly "those two girls are married!". She's funny. She's been present for all but one of the transfers and she always comes out with something cute while we're there. One time she thanked the doctor on the way out for "giving us our boy egg" lol. This time she took her baby doll in with her to show off. It's been hard balancing how much we tell the girls about what we're doing and when we're doing it. We told them at the start that we were thinking about having a baby just to see how they felt about it and of course they got excited about it. We've explained a little bit about how we'd make a baby ie. needing a good egg and nice person to give us some extra ingredients and a doctor to mix them together and put it all back inside my tummy to see if it grows into a baby. Jazz has been particularly fasinated by the whole thing and because she's also had to attend a number of the appointments, she's been aware of when the egg has been put back and often asks if there is a baby in my tummy yet. She's also let the cat out of the bag a few times (as little ones do) telling others (we didn't want to tell) innocently about the doctor putting the egg back in my tummy. Anyway ... more recently she's being showing a bit of frustration with the whole waiting game. The other day she was upset about something else but then suddenly she was crying about wanting a baby brother or sister and why is it taking so long? We try not to focus on it and avoid telling them too much about what we are doing and when but then they'll see me injecting my stims or I'll need to take them to an appointment and then they'll start asking baby questions again. I feel bad knowing that all this talk might end up disappointing them and Charlie seems to have now resided herself to the fact that we aren't having a baby and has been saying this to Jazz. But Jazz remains the eternal optimist as she should be at 5 years of age which I'm thankful for (for selfish reasons). She actually brings me pictures she's drawn "for the baby" and tonight she made a necklace out of beads "for the baby" which is totally random but incredibly sweet and cute. I'm glad we are up front with our kids about this stuff and with all the appointments it would have been pretty hard to avoid anyway, but sometimes I just wish we could have kept them in the dark and surprised them with it if/when it ever happens. At this rate, I think if we do ever get pregnant we'll be thinking long and hard about when to let them in on it. But that's not something we need to worry about just yet. We have another wait infront of us and right now it's time for some progesterone :)
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