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I realized the other day that I haven't mentioned one of the most unpleasant side-effects I've experienced as a result of undergoing fertility treatment ... I stink! Really bad. All the hormones that have been pumped into my body have given me bad BO and a strong pheromone type smell in general. I feel like I need half a can of deoderant a day to deal with it! It's weird, but I don't know what else it could be from other than all the medication I've been on. Scout says she can't smell it but I think she's just being kind cos I don't know how she couldn't! I thought it might go away after I stopped the puregon but the progesterone seems to be having a similar effect. Apart from making me continue to stink, the progesterone is also starting to turn me into a bit of a cranky pants, making my nipples painful especially when I roll over in bed, and making me feel 'wet' all the time ... Possibly TMI! I started wearing liners at first in case I "leaked" progesterone but it turns out it's the excess CM I'm getting that I need to wear them for. This morning I woke up feeling so damp, I had a bit of a panic thinking I could have started my period! I took my temp and my heart sank when I saw it had dropped. I got up to go to the toilet to check and it turned out to be nothing but a wet liner. So now I'm wondering / hoping that the drop in temp was an implantation dip. I've had the slightest of cramping and occassional twinges of mild pain over the last two days but barely noticeable and I've tried not to read too much into symptoms this cycle but after this morning the cogs in my brain are turning. Very bad considering we have another 3-4 days till we could/should test and 6 until the beta. I've been so good up until now ... But I can feel myself slipping back into the old trap of getting hopeful and looking for more 'signs' of hope that could well turn out to be false hope in a few days time. I am dreading the thought of a BFN and having to start a new IVF cycle all over again. That would suck ... Physically, emotionally and financially. I am still bloated to the point where my pants are all too tight. Another round of this stuff and I will turn into an even bigger, smellier, rounder balloon than I already am! Fingers crossed my temp is back up again tomorrow morning and AF stays away for another say ... 9 months or so?