Staying distracted at 9dp2dt

I don't think we could have picked a more perfect time to endure a TWW. There is just so much going on for us in December that we've hardly had time to dwell on things this time. It's been great! We now have less than a week left till the beta and even less till AF, with plenty of distractions still up our sleeve.

Thursday was Charlie's birthday. She loves her new Furby and is actually alittle obsessed with it at the moment. No doubt it will wear off but right now it's the only present she's playing with apart from this giant remote control nemo helium balloon Scout's mum gave her.

The Furby

And the birthday girl!

Yesterday I finished work early to go to Jazz's kinder concert. It was cute but the songs went on longer than the kids were interested in singing and Jazz spent most of it just staring at the audience and wriggling around. She had to dress up as a rabbit and since rabbit ears aren't exactly in huge supply at this time of year we had to make some late Thursday night. I also painted her face before dropping her off and she looked very cute but of course by the time the concert came around it was half wiped off.

One super cute rabbit :)

Today we have Charlie's birthday party which is basically pancake's at the Pancake Parlour and a movie. She has invited 4 of her school friends to come so it shouldn't be too big of an ordeal but she does tend to become a little "silly" when she's around her friends.  And tomorrow we plan on sleeping in. Thank goodness!!! We are both exhausted and overdue for a lazy day at home doing nothing. Having said that, at some point I need to buy a kris Kringle present for work and sort out a few other things for Scout's birthday on the 20th.

I'm both excited and nervous about the next few days and finding out the outcome of this cycle. I am praying my period stays away and am counting down the days to the beta but having been stung before by disappointment on the test date I am starting to prepare myself for the possibility of bad news again. I always convince myself I'm pregnant and end up disappointed so this time I'm trying not to go there. If we get a BFN at least I'll be starting holidays two days later and I can drown my disappointment in food, drink and general festivities over Christmas and new years. But I really hope that's not the case. Please, please, please, please let this be the one...

6dp2dt

The wait is going ok ... although I still wish it would go faster! I am keeping a list of any odd things I notice each day but they are all relatively minuscule / non existent. In general, I don't feel any different from how I usually feel. The only big change I have noticed over the last 3 days is I am thirsty all the time. I have always struggled to increase my fluid intake so I rarely drink more than half a litre at work each day, but this week I am suddenly getting through 1.5-2 litres a day and that's just during working hours. For some reason I just feel the need to drink alot. It has been pretty warm here lately though, so Scout thinks that's all it is. She refuses to read into any of the little things I notice or mention. This morning I had my second HCG shot and I was tempted to test before hand just to see if the last shot was fully of of my system but she wouldn't let me. I wanted to know so I could calculate how long after this second shot we would need to wait before we could test but Scout has told me I'm not allowed to :(. She is trying her best to keep me grounded this time. My period is due next Tuesday so we have agreed not to test till after then.

Apart from the wait we have been preparing for both Christmas and Charlie's birthday. On Saturday I spent ages running around trying to find a 'Furby' for her which is the only thing she said she wants for her birthday. It turns out that also seems to be 'the' gift for kids her age for Christmas this year because they are sold out everywhere!!! We ended up having to buy one at a ridiculously inflated price on ebay so I really hope she's likes it. On sunday we finished making and writing our Christmas cards, made a gingerbread house that turned into a bit of a mess because the icing started melting in the heat and all the lollies kept dropping off, and I helped Charlies make a dream catcher which she tells me is working really well. Apparently she saw it wobble the other night when it caught one of her bad dreams ;). Anyway ... Tomorrow is her birthday so I will let you know how the Furby goes down. Hope everyone else in a cycle is travelling ok!

2dp2dt

Given I've just spent the last couple of months waiting for this cycle to come around, two more weeks should go by pretty quickly ... right? So far I'm managing to keep my mind off the baby station but of course in the back of my head I keep wondering what's going on in there and whether our two embies are still ok.

Distractions so far ... Charlie's school Christmas concert was on Thursday night after the transfer. It was cute but a little disappointing given her class didn't even perform a Christmas carol. What is with that? Everyone in her class wore a little Indian type head dress with feathers but Charlie had to be different and insisted on wearing her rudolph ears and nose lol. We stood at the back to watch and a family with newborn twin boys pulled their pram up beside us. An omen? Who knows, but let's just say I'm glad it wasn't twin girls ;)

Yesterday we were all pretty tired from being up late at the concert. Work was bearable and I keep myself well distracted with clients until I got home last night. Night time I think is the worst because I start surfing the net on my phone or reading pregnancy books or watching the health channel. Last night Scout and I were actually both home together which was nice but I was so tired from such a busy week, I was off to sleep by 9pm.

Today I have a reflexology appointment and I just had my first Pregnyl shot. Scout is working so I'm dropping the girls with her mum and will go shopping for Charlie's birthday after the reflexology. Then I've got Christmas cards to write and gingerbread to bake so I think I should be suitably distracted. Only 2 and a bit weeks to Christmas! How crazy is that?!

The first of only two shots for this entire cycle!

How cute are these raindeers that keep following us around?!

Family photo with Santa :)

The Call

This morning I got the call I was hoping I wouldn't get. It's never a good thing to get a call from your FS in person on the morning of your transfer. She said they had thawed a 4 cell embie and only 2 of the 4 cells survived and neither of the two cells had continued dividing so it wasn't looking good. She recommended thawing the second and I agreed. So I basically spent the rest of the morning in a fairly non-productive state at work worrying about how the second would thaw and whether we would actually have anything to transfer. But to my great relief the second one thawed beautifully and turned out to be a lovely 8 cell by the time it was transferred. They actually transferred both even though they weren't confident about the 2 cell one. So we are now officially in the wait and I am just hoping and praying that my uterus is kind to these little guys and does everything possible to help them stick. I did my best to get a pic but it's not very good ...

T-1 to TWW

Transfer is booked for 12.20 tomorrow and I'm guessing our little frosty should be a 'defrostie' by now. I am just hoping and praying it starts growing again the way it should. Unfortunately 12.20 tomorrow is smack bang in the middle of one of Scout's appointments and she really can't change it so I will be doing this transfer on my own. I doubt I'll be able to get a pic of the embryo this time cos I'll be in the chair with a catheter insitu and the screen is too far away from the chair to get a decent shot. So I guess this little ones first pic will just have to be a sono pic instead ;). Ohhh please let this be the one. I can't believe we will finally be in the wait again. I will need to keep myself super distracted this time as I'm already feeling a little stir crazy wondering about the outcome. We've had another pregnancy announcement at work this week and these things usually come in 3's so surely number 3 has gotta be me ... Right?! Fingers crossed this one sticks :).

Surge ;)

The blood test this morning took ages to come through so I had to go in for the scan and then hang around and wait for the results. I couldn't leave in case the results were negative cos then I'd need to pick up a trigger shot. So after 2 hours of waiting they told me the results where inconclusive and I had to have yet another blood test. They let me go back to work after that and rang this afternoon to confirm that I have officially surged :) Yay! So the transfer is planned for Thursday but we won't know the time till the day beforehand. I am so glad I don't need the trigger :). This means the only drugs I'll be taking this cycle are for leutal phase support. I'll be having Pregnyl shots rather than the progesterone pessaries this time so I won't be able to test at all because I'll run the risk of a false positive. I'm alittle bummed by that but at least it'll save me the psychological trauma of the dreaded sticks and I won't have to deal with yucky stuff up my twat! A Thursday transfer also means the beta test will fall on the 20th which is Scout's birthday :) Fingers crossed she gets the present we are both hoping for cos I really don't wanna spoil her birthday with another BFN.

Negative day post positive OPK

I got a positive OPK this morning and went in for a blood test. Apparently they won't get the results back till tomorrow so basically I need to leave home at 7am tomorrow for my 8.20am scan which I may or may not actually need to go to based on these results. Oh well ... I guess I'll just start driving and hope they call me with a yes or no before I get too far past my work ... but I'm pretty sure I won't be needing the scan. If the bloods come back positive for the surge I'm assuming my transfer will be either Wednesday or Thursday. I'm really hoping it's not Wednesday as that's the one day Scout will not be able to come and even Thursday isn't looking too good. I know it's not essential that she be there for it, but it is kinda the key procedure in the whole process and the one we'd really prefer to be together for. So we are both a little bummed about how the timing of things seems to be panning out but what can you do.

This weekend we made shortbread biscuits with the girls and got our Chrissy photo done with Santa :). And then we came home to find a planning permit notice stapled to our fence. We live in a rented house and the owner is a total bitch. She has been coming in and out and had a valuer, surveyor and arborist come check out the place over the past 6 months. We've suspected she might be planning to subdivide the block and have been asking the realestate what's going on for months but they've kept us in the dark till today when we came home and saw the notice. It's fucking rude and we are pissed to say the least. We rented this place because it had a big yard for the animals and the kids, and also storage for all our camping, gardening and extra miscellaneous stuff. Subdivision will mean we'll have no yard - nowhere for our animals, no storage, nowhere for our boat or camper trailer, no more veggie patch and no space even for the kids swings! Basically it means we are gonna have to move. And we don't want to move. We are really happy and settled where we are. There are only 10 other places in town for rent and they are shitholes that don't meet our needs. So not only are we now faced with having to move house but we might also have to leave the town we currently live in (which we love) and our kids are going to have to change their school which is an awesome school and one of the main reasons we moved to this town in the first place. I am so depressed and stressed just thinking about it. And I am so sick of being a part of this rental rat race where we have no control over anything. I wish we could just buy a place and not have to deal with anyone else's shit but of course we've spent our deposit on IVF ... Not that we have anything to show for it. Ugh! Not.happy.Jan.