Fertility signs are doing my head in.

I think over analyzing everything must just go hand in hand with TTC cos my brain has been working overtime for the past 24 hours. I've been stressing about fertility signs and trying to figure out if my cycle is already a bust or not. I did an OPK last night and it was +ve. That's a 36 hour gap between my -ve blood test Friday and +ve OPK Saturday night at 10.30pm. Then this morning I woke up to a temp rise. So I have no idea whether I caught the surge on Saturday night at the start or the finish but the temp rise this morning has me worried. I did a saliva test and it showed full ferning - ie time to get busy with sperm. My clinic doesn't do IUIs on the weekend so despite all the signs suggesting I'm either ovulating or about to, there's no chance of inseminating! They usually use an antagonist to delay ovulation if they think it'll happen over the weekend but clearly on Friday it looked like we still had plenty of time. So I went in for the blood test this morning and told them about the positive OPK last night and they were like "Great!". This confused me since I'm freaking out at this point that I can't inseminate till tomorrow afternoon at the earliest (they also only do inseminations in the afternoon - can it get any more restrictive?!). So now I'm worried I'm missing my window of opportunity. If I caught the surge at the start and I haven't ovulated yet then a Monday afternoon insemination might still be ok. But if it was the later stage of the surge and I've ovulated today then I'm screwed. Anyway, they took my blood this morning and rang me later to confirm the surge and told me I'm booked for a 4pm insemination tomorrow. They've also cancelled the scan as it's apparently no longer necessary (probably because the egg will have already done a runner by then if it hasn't already!). I'm trying to stay positive but I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't concerned. I am just hoping that tomorrow morning my temp drops again or stays the same. A spike will be a disaster. I am relying on the fact that my temps have been all over the place for the last two cycles, I never ovulate this early, I've not gotten any EWCM yet and I'm only at day 12. But I've also never done injectables so who knows what impact that's had. I think I am just going to have to hope for the best and try not to stress that my little follicle has already flown the coop.

More appointments

I was up early this morning to make the long drive back into the city for my scan. The Dr who did the scan turned out to be the same Dr our friends are seeing. She was very nice and seemed fairly familiar with where we are up to with things. The scan was pretty straight forward, however it turns out the follicle is on the right hand side which is the side with the dodgy tube so I was a bit disappointed about that. Still, I'm trying to stay positive ... At least we have a follicle to work with. Apparently it's taking it's time growing so the Dr has upped my puregon dose to fatten it up a bit :) It was 10mm on Wednesday and it's 13mm today. They're still not sure as to when we'll inseminate ... It will just depend on the size and whether I surge on my own or not. I'm just hoping I don't surge too soon. They took blood today and I have to go in for another blood test on Sunday so they can keep an eye on it. Then Monday they'll do another scan and see where we're at. So I'm hoping we're still looking at insemination on Tuesday. We'll see. My temp dipped this morning and it usually does that 3-4 days before I ovulate. Either way I'm impressed with how closely they're monitoring the cycle. It's alot of appointments but if it increases my chances then I'm happy to do it.

Today is our last day in Toora. We pack up head home tomorrow. I'm tired from all the driving this morning so I'm just going to relax and do nothing this afternoon. Scout wants to go fishing again tonight, but I need an early night so she'll take Charlie with her and leave Jazz with me. I'm disappointed I've missed out on a lot of time with the girls this trip but we've still manage to have fun. Wilson's prom was beautiful :). The girls had a great time at Squeaky Beach playing in the tidal streams and on the rocks, however Charlie was a bit disappointed that the sand wasn't as 'squeaky' as she'd hoped lol. Anyway we will definately have to make another trip to camp there sometime.

Right now though, I think i need a sleep! I am not looking forward to packing up or the drive home tomorrow.