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Friday, 8 June 2012
Going for broke
CD9 and I had my second scan today. Apparently my ovaries just aren't into puregon cos the double dose hasn't made any difference. I have 2 follicles at 13-14mm that look like they could go the distance but the others aren't doing anything. Just to confirm my impression that things are looking pretty shit, my FS asked if we wanted to do an IUI instead. I can't believe after all these drugs I've only managed to reach a decent enough level for an IUI!!! Anyway my response to that was 'NO'. I don't want to do an IUI and we couldn't do one even if we did want to because we gave up our IUI donor to swap to an IVF donor! We would have to go on a waitlist to get another IUI donor now. IVF is our only option which sounds a little rediculous with only 2 follicles but what else can we do? If we cancel and try again next month we might end up with only 1 follicle or none. It's all just one big gamble on really low odds, and if we fail at this ... it's going to be a long wait to save for the next try and who knows if I'll even have any eggs left by then. I don't know what to feel at this point. After the first scan I cried for most of the drive back to work cos I knew things weren't looking good. I actually think I got a speeding ticket in the tunnel, I was so distracted and upset. But today I just feel nothing. If I only have 2 good follicles and I want to finish this cycle I just have to keep hoping that 2 will be enough. Dr P said she's had another patient with only one follicle who got one egg and went on to have a baby ... And I've googled a few other people with similar stories which makes me feel a little better. Anyway, she's bumped my dose again to 400iu (I didn't even know my pen could dial up that much!) and the plan is to trigger Monday night, collect Wednesday and if we get lucky enough to get an egg that fertilizes and survives, they'll transfer Friday. Wish us luck cos we are seriously gonna need it. Tomorrow we're heading off for a weekend away in the north of the state and I won't be back at work till after the egg collection. Hopefully a few days of fishing and family will be good for everyone ... including my follicles ;).
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Friday, 8 June 2012
Going for broke
CD9 and I had my second scan today. Apparently my ovaries just aren't into puregon cos the double dose hasn't made any difference. I have 2 follicles at 13-14mm that look like they could go the distance but the others aren't doing anything. Just to confirm my impression that things are looking pretty shit, my FS asked if we wanted to do an IUI instead. I can't believe after all these drugs I've only managed to reach a decent enough level for an IUI!!! Anyway my response to that was 'NO'. I don't want to do an IUI and we couldn't do one even if we did want to because we gave up our IUI donor to swap to an IVF donor! We would have to go on a waitlist to get another IUI donor now. IVF is our only option which sounds a little rediculous with only 2 follicles but what else can we do? If we cancel and try again next month we might end up with only 1 follicle or none. It's all just one big gamble on really low odds, and if we fail at this ... it's going to be a long wait to save for the next try and who knows if I'll even have any eggs left by then. I don't know what to feel at this point. After the first scan I cried for most of the drive back to work cos I knew things weren't looking good. I actually think I got a speeding ticket in the tunnel, I was so distracted and upset. But today I just feel nothing. If I only have 2 good follicles and I want to finish this cycle I just have to keep hoping that 2 will be enough. Dr P said she's had another patient with only one follicle who got one egg and went on to have a baby ... And I've googled a few other people with similar stories which makes me feel a little better. Anyway, she's bumped my dose again to 400iu (I didn't even know my pen could dial up that much!) and the plan is to trigger Monday night, collect Wednesday and if we get lucky enough to get an egg that fertilizes and survives, they'll transfer Friday. Wish us luck cos we are seriously gonna need it. Tomorrow we're heading off for a weekend away in the north of the state and I won't be back at work till after the egg collection. Hopefully a few days of fishing and family will be good for everyone ... including my follicles ;).
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crossing fingers and toes over here that things go your way this cycle. it must be so frustrating with your follies but it will all be worth it if you wind up with a bfp this time around! you ladies are certainly getting close with things happening just next week! we'll be thinking of you!
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Thanks Amy :). Just hoping some more follies will miraculously 'pop' in the last few days of stimming before trigger!
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I'm sorry about the low response, it happened to me on my second IUI's, it's weird the way our body react differently, for me it's different every cycle. So you are going to go ahead, I suppose it's worth it at this point, I hated whe they cancelled mine. So best of luck! I'll be thinking of you and cross my fingers!!!It'll be nice if we both get pregnant this month!
ReplyDeleteYeah ... It's hard to know what to do. I might regret not cancelling or I might regret it if I do cancel. I wish I had a crystal ball to tell me the outcome but of course we don't so all I feel like we can do is just keep going and see. If we get nothing ... Then we'll just have to pick ourselves up and try again. I'm just trying to stay positive right now even though I know realistically we could be facing a week of big disappointment. Thanks for wishing us luck :)
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crossing fingers and toes over here that things go your way this cycle. it must be so frustrating with your follies but it will all be worth it if you wind up with a bfp this time around! you ladies are certainly getting close with things happening just next week! we'll be thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteThanks Amy :). Just hoping some more follies will miraculously 'pop' in the last few days of stimming before trigger!
DeleteI'm sorry about the low response, it happened to me on my second IUI's, it's weird the way our body react differently, for me it's different every cycle. So you are going to go ahead, I suppose it's worth it at this point, I hated whe they cancelled mine. So best of luck! I'll be thinking of you and cross my fingers!!!It'll be nice if we both get pregnant this month!
ReplyDeleteYeah ... It's hard to know what to do. I might regret not cancelling or I might regret it if I do cancel. I wish I had a crystal ball to tell me the outcome but of course we don't so all I feel like we can do is just keep going and see. If we get nothing ... Then we'll just have to pick ourselves up and try again. I'm just trying to stay positive right now even though I know realistically we could be facing a week of big disappointment. Thanks for wishing us luck :)
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