Speaking of the fertility thing ... I've started on the BCP again. Another week or so and I'll be sniffing syneryl. I'm not overly excited about the prospect of another stim cycle next month but time isn't exactly on my side given I turn 39 this year. So we are trying again ... But if this one fails we will be taking a break. Financially this next cycle will be a push for us to cover as it is. We have until egg collection to come up with the cash. It will be more expensive this time too because it's a new year and I need to meet the safety net limit again to be eligible for the Medicare subsidy. My private health insurance only covers the cost of my hospital bed for egg collection and transfer and because it's a new year I'll also need to pay a $500 excess to them again as well. All up it's about $11,000 including the hospital fees and I'll need to pay $9,500 at egg collection. If I could take the money factor out of the equation, I imagine I would be able to cope a bit better with the prospect of repeated IVF cycles. It would still be shit but at least I'd have hope. Instead, my hope now seems to be limited by our bank account. When our bank account runs out, my hope will run out too. As much as I desperately want to get pregnant and have a baby ... I have to confess that 'baby making' is no longer an exciting prospect for me. It feels like some emotionally driven financial extortion with bankruptcy being our only guarantee. Yes, I am officially bitter and jaded ... and I wish I wasn't, but that's where I'm at when I think about IVF and doing it all over again. It's hard to be positive about something that's only ever served up pain and disappointment with a hefty bill to boot. Anyway, we will see how we go, but I'm certainly not looking forward to any part of this next cycle.
Little Miss Sunshine (2011-2017)
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