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Tuesday 28 August 2012

Tired, Cranky and Bound for Crazy Town

Down reg scan was all good although a little gross given I'm 3 days into my period. I'm just relieved there wasn't anything on the screen that shouldn't have been there. I was half expecting a set back but thankfully I didn't need to worry. So we're all good to go with stimming. I've started at 400iu of puregon this time. Next scan is in a week, so lets hope I'll be loaded with follies by then. I'm still sniffing which is going ok but I'm tired and feeling a little flat from the meds and how drawn out this cycle is. My alarm goes off every morning and night reminding me to take my dose which is a good thing because I would never remember otherwise. I am actually starting to get a bit sick of taking the syneryl (and preconception vitamins too for that matter!) but you gotta do what you gotta do I guess. I actually worked out the other day that I have spent nearly $500 in preconception vitamins alone since we started this whole thing in December last year. I am starting to resent buying them each month because it's a reminder that we're still not pregnant. I keep hoping each box will be the last one so I can start buying pregnancy vitamins instead! But so far that is yet to change.

Anyway ... I am preparing myself for the craziness that comes with these high doses of puregon. Hopefully I don't get caught shoplifting or anything weird this time around. I've also been quite depressed from the other meds and pretty cranky lately. I feel bad because I haven't had alot of patience with the girls and have been snappy with Scout quite often in the morning lately. I just don't seem to be sleeping very well so I'm a little worried that I'll become quite unbearable to be around over the next few weeks as the drugs build up. How people do this cycle after cycle I have no idea. All I know is I need to try and relax, distract myself, be patient with those I love, and keep my head about me as I head into the business end of this cycle.

Saturday 11 August 2012

8WW?

2 weeks down and probably 6 more to go. Damn this is going to be a looooong cycle! Along with the BCP, I start sniffing the synarel this week. Fingers crossed it puts to sleep any endometrosis that's flared up again since my laparoscopy. I am feeling relatively good about this cycle so far. I've been exercising almost every day and have finally lost most of the bloat from the last cycle which I honestly thought would never go. I had another reflexology session this week and will have one more before I start stimming. But the best thing this coming week will be that I get to hand over the stressful job that I've been backfilling for the last year and return to being just a regular clinician. Whoowhoo! I am looking forward to feeling alot less stressed and alot less guilty about taking time off work for the pick up and transfer. Stress was my biggest problem last time (that was within my control) so hopefully I'll be able to manage it a bit better this time.

This week our youngest also turned 5! I can't believe she is no longer a little toddler and will be starting school next year. Life is going to be alot easier next year with both our girls on the same schedule, at least until we get pregnant and have another little one on our hands!

Gosh I hope we have better luck this time around. Even if we got another BFN I think I'd be ok if we got some frosties out of it, cause I actually like the idea of a natural thaw cycle. But somehow I think that might be a bit of a pipe dream. Anyway ... I just need to concentrate on one week at a time. Let's hope this synarel stuff doesn't give me too my nasty side effects ...

Saturday 4 August 2012

Miss Cranky Pants

Lately I feel like a cranky old lady that has nothing better to do but sit around and write letters of complaint. In the past couple of weeks I have lodged three complaints with three different organizations. I'm not normally big on making complaints but I guess I must have low tolerance for bullshit at the moment.

This week I wrote letters to my IVF clinic and another business I use at work that is not performing. The third was a dirty phone call to our realestate agent. I feel like a complaining cow and I have no doubt that that will be how others see me, but the reality is without feedback nothing changes.

This week I started on the BCP so Scout had to go into the clinic to pick up the meds. This is my third medicated cycle so you'd think by now we'd have things down to a fine art. Unfortunately when it comes to collection of meds we are still floundering around trying to figure out the rediculous system they have in place that's clearly not working. Everytime I start a cycle I call in my day 1 and I confirm with the nurse on the phone what meds to start when and where to go to pick them up. And everytime we go in to collect them, no one knows who we are or where our script is and we have to go through the same bullshit of trying to first find the script before they will give us the meds. This time, after being reassured by the nurse on the phone that the script would definately be waiting for us at reception, of course it still wasn't there and for the third time, Scout had to spend an hour dragging our 4 year old from one end of the facility to the other trying to track it down. She also had to endure the laughter of one of their reception staff who obviously found her frustration and confusion over the whole process amusing. I was working at the time so I didn't find out about this till I got home that night but needless to say I was wild when I heard Scout telling me that a member of staff had actually laughed at her. It's embarrassing enough feeling like you don't know what you're doing but then having the people who are suppose to be helping you, laugh at you instead, is just humiliating. I was pissed and spent that evening bashing out a letter of complaint which I emailed to them the very next day.

It's not like I want to get my clinic offside but I'm also not about to stand by and do nothing when my partner is treated like that. We pay big bucks for this stuff and they need to get their act together. Anyway ... enough of my bitching and moaning. If I'm like this now, god help everyone when I start on the stims!

Tuesday 28 August 2012

Tired, Cranky and Bound for Crazy Town

Down reg scan was all good although a little gross given I'm 3 days into my period. I'm just relieved there wasn't anything on the screen that shouldn't have been there. I was half expecting a set back but thankfully I didn't need to worry. So we're all good to go with stimming. I've started at 400iu of puregon this time. Next scan is in a week, so lets hope I'll be loaded with follies by then. I'm still sniffing which is going ok but I'm tired and feeling a little flat from the meds and how drawn out this cycle is. My alarm goes off every morning and night reminding me to take my dose which is a good thing because I would never remember otherwise. I am actually starting to get a bit sick of taking the syneryl (and preconception vitamins too for that matter!) but you gotta do what you gotta do I guess. I actually worked out the other day that I have spent nearly $500 in preconception vitamins alone since we started this whole thing in December last year. I am starting to resent buying them each month because it's a reminder that we're still not pregnant. I keep hoping each box will be the last one so I can start buying pregnancy vitamins instead! But so far that is yet to change.

Anyway ... I am preparing myself for the craziness that comes with these high doses of puregon. Hopefully I don't get caught shoplifting or anything weird this time around. I've also been quite depressed from the other meds and pretty cranky lately. I feel bad because I haven't had alot of patience with the girls and have been snappy with Scout quite often in the morning lately. I just don't seem to be sleeping very well so I'm a little worried that I'll become quite unbearable to be around over the next few weeks as the drugs build up. How people do this cycle after cycle I have no idea. All I know is I need to try and relax, distract myself, be patient with those I love, and keep my head about me as I head into the business end of this cycle.

Saturday 11 August 2012

8WW?

2 weeks down and probably 6 more to go. Damn this is going to be a looooong cycle! Along with the BCP, I start sniffing the synarel this week. Fingers crossed it puts to sleep any endometrosis that's flared up again since my laparoscopy. I am feeling relatively good about this cycle so far. I've been exercising almost every day and have finally lost most of the bloat from the last cycle which I honestly thought would never go. I had another reflexology session this week and will have one more before I start stimming. But the best thing this coming week will be that I get to hand over the stressful job that I've been backfilling for the last year and return to being just a regular clinician. Whoowhoo! I am looking forward to feeling alot less stressed and alot less guilty about taking time off work for the pick up and transfer. Stress was my biggest problem last time (that was within my control) so hopefully I'll be able to manage it a bit better this time.

This week our youngest also turned 5! I can't believe she is no longer a little toddler and will be starting school next year. Life is going to be alot easier next year with both our girls on the same schedule, at least until we get pregnant and have another little one on our hands!

Gosh I hope we have better luck this time around. Even if we got another BFN I think I'd be ok if we got some frosties out of it, cause I actually like the idea of a natural thaw cycle. But somehow I think that might be a bit of a pipe dream. Anyway ... I just need to concentrate on one week at a time. Let's hope this synarel stuff doesn't give me too my nasty side effects ...

Saturday 4 August 2012

Miss Cranky Pants

Lately I feel like a cranky old lady that has nothing better to do but sit around and write letters of complaint. In the past couple of weeks I have lodged three complaints with three different organizations. I'm not normally big on making complaints but I guess I must have low tolerance for bullshit at the moment.

This week I wrote letters to my IVF clinic and another business I use at work that is not performing. The third was a dirty phone call to our realestate agent. I feel like a complaining cow and I have no doubt that that will be how others see me, but the reality is without feedback nothing changes.

This week I started on the BCP so Scout had to go into the clinic to pick up the meds. This is my third medicated cycle so you'd think by now we'd have things down to a fine art. Unfortunately when it comes to collection of meds we are still floundering around trying to figure out the rediculous system they have in place that's clearly not working. Everytime I start a cycle I call in my day 1 and I confirm with the nurse on the phone what meds to start when and where to go to pick them up. And everytime we go in to collect them, no one knows who we are or where our script is and we have to go through the same bullshit of trying to first find the script before they will give us the meds. This time, after being reassured by the nurse on the phone that the script would definately be waiting for us at reception, of course it still wasn't there and for the third time, Scout had to spend an hour dragging our 4 year old from one end of the facility to the other trying to track it down. She also had to endure the laughter of one of their reception staff who obviously found her frustration and confusion over the whole process amusing. I was working at the time so I didn't find out about this till I got home that night but needless to say I was wild when I heard Scout telling me that a member of staff had actually laughed at her. It's embarrassing enough feeling like you don't know what you're doing but then having the people who are suppose to be helping you, laugh at you instead, is just humiliating. I was pissed and spent that evening bashing out a letter of complaint which I emailed to them the very next day.

It's not like I want to get my clinic offside but I'm also not about to stand by and do nothing when my partner is treated like that. We pay big bucks for this stuff and they need to get their act together. Anyway ... enough of my bitching and moaning. If I'm like this now, god help everyone when I start on the stims!

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